Darkness

Darkness surrounds us all. We see things as shadows, we know what something is but do we really have knowledge of it. Few have that knowledge, yet when someone understands that knowledge they are ridiculed, scorned at, and even out to death for what the say or believe. And are a lot of them far of the truth? We love the dark. the seclusion, the mystery and are afraid if the light, understanding, and knowledge. Humans are the only species that has the capability of ignorance. Our darkness is ignorance, we do not understand so we image, fantasize make something up and hold on to that and if someone tries to destroy that right or wrong we are outraged. We love to live in a quiet, simple, easy life that we understand but in reality our life is chaotic, hard, and constantly changing so there is no way to understand it. That's the way we have to learn to live, see the dark so we can understand the light.

The need for answers is the base line for all humanity. Everyone no matter how smart, intelligent or witty has a need for answers. But there are not answers for everything so we have to live with the unknown. So how do we define the unknown? Religion, myths, fantasies? Are these all subconscious reasons to try and figure out what we don't know? Our is there actual meaning for something we know? Our life exist beyond science. How can science know what happens after death, something that happens to every living thing. Our live revolves around different possibilities different ideas different ways of life. Yet we kill, wage war, and discriminate. We are all one, we all live on the same planet yet we can't live in peace. Our needs are the same yet we can't figure out how to work together to figure it out. Subconsciously we all know the answers to everything we want to know but until we can live as one and accept ourselves for who and what we are and accept the lifeforms around use for what the are we will never learn and move ahead.

Im am here even if you don't think so

The universe will end by my will for I am the Lord of Annihilation, the God of Destruction, the Demand of chaos all fear me, few warship me. I am your pain, your hatred, your fear and you shall learn to live, love, and thrive in me for without me there shall be nothing. Once you accept my you will live above others, time and place will become meaningless for you shall rise and become my right hand in all destruction for without destruction there can be no birth and with out birth there is emptiness beyond imagination.

The World is going to End

Ha, well the world is going to end. As to when, well that's to be debated with all the religions and scientists out there. Now that we know this won't last for ever, it our job as a people, as a race, as a society, to get over our petty differences and grow the f*@k up. Are we going to kill ourselves? Are we going to live in peace with ourself, our planet, our galaxy? Well, I don't need the Pope or a scientist to tell me that if we keep on the course we are going, we will destroy all. We will have the blood of our race on our own hands. We will be the end of all we know and love. We must learn to respect ourselves as a person before we can learn how to respect our species or other species that live on this planet, our planet, the only true home that we have.

Ying and Yang

Lets talk about the Ying and Yang of the human soul. First comes Ying the emotional side of your soul. Second comes Yang the logical side of your soul. Now I'm not sure how many of you know what Ying and Yang is so here's a brief sentence about it. Ying and Yang, Light and Dark. Good and Evil, all the forces in the universe and their opposite. For you can not have anything with out something to counterbalance the relationship. Now to get back to what I was saying.

Your emotions are your morals.. the force of your soul that sets the guidelines, regulations, and your own justice systems. If we had no emotion the world would already be destroyed. If we had no emotions there would be no love, no happiness, no joy. With no emotions there would be no hate, no anger and no fear. But yet all of the emotion I just said are the driving force of who someone is and how they will live. We as a people would not be human without emotion, how could we? Would we move if we where afraid of the winter, how could we? Would we have children that would grow up strong if we did not care and love them? And yet our society shuns emotion.. says emotions just get in our way. Well if you see anyone like that just straight up tell them to f@*k off for how can they be human without their guideline?

Now here comes logic.

Logic is really not the opposite of emotion but they both work together in order move in the right direction. Now when I say logic I don't mean you have to be smart I am implying that you need common sense. The saying "The best intentions may lead to the worst outcome" and "Give a man a fish you feed him for a day, Teach a man to fish you feed him for a life time" imply here. For your good intention may lead to something worse. having common sense in choosing the right path and knowing what that path is, are two different things but they work as one. Having one without the other may lead to devastating results.

Life

Why are people so obsessed with life? So far, all that I can do is sleep, and work my ass off, and for what?! Death comes on swift wings, so are we to help it, or live miserably? Why do we hold onto this misery when we cannot find a meaning? Why are people afraid to die when it only makes you fear misery and life without happiness? People must accept death to live for death cannot exist without the forerunner of life. There is no one or the other, but instead both existing together like light and darkness. Once this is accepted, one can live life without fear of what’s to come. “The greatest joys, come with the greatest hardships.” We have to take charge.

One fact of life is that when you want to learn something, you want to learn it in an unforgettable way because you want to learn so that you will never forget. Most lessons come with great pain, loss, or adversely love, or extreme happiness, which embeds our lessons with the giving or loss of material or emotion. Just like how I lost my deepest love because of irresponsibility, lost emotion, and truthfully, disregard for standing up for who I am. I regret losing her every day, but I’ve learned that we have to appreciate those who love us, and treat them with the same respect. I will never forgive myself for my mistakes, and I wear something that I had given her every day in remembrance of my idiocy.

Life is a one way street, it goes on and on in one direction, never stopping and never flipping a U turn to change. All you can do is move ahead only glancing back through your rear-view mirror. If you think far into the future, you’ll forget who you are, who you were, and you could end up in a wreck. Concentrating on your current situation, keeping your hands on the wheel, and giving your all will take you far away from failure. You may dream in the future but not live, you have to live now, here, where you are at this very moment, never in any other place.

My Thoughts on Love

What is love? Simple question, with a very difficult answer. Is love truly just a word? Yes and no, the answer comes when you think of “love” as a word for “love” is just a word, but it’s a word that describes the feelings of passion, laughter, fear, hate, and much more all at the same time. Love is the hardest feeling to describe, because it’s such a vast emotion. Anyone can live without love until they find love, then the lust for renewal of that emotion makes us crazy to no end.

There is no one true love, per say, for you or me. One cannot make a list of things that MUST exist in their special someone and say, my love WILL have these characteristics, or it won’t be love at all. They however can tell their love that they desire these characteristics, and if it’s true love, they can work out the kinks, and change for each other. To find love you have to search within yourself and see what all you and this person have done for the other and all that you’ve been through. Love must also go both ways, one cannot give all the love, it must be returned.

Love joins a couple’s souls creating a link, chains are formed, but the couple must realize each other’s limits, or fighting commences, and the chain is broken. The emotion of love is precious and fragile.. You have to cherish it but hold on with a firm grip at the same time, or it could fall, and shatter your heart. It has to be nurtured like a baby, with firm arms, touched with passionate gentleness. Always be thankful for what you have.. For it could be lost, leaving you with much suffering. If there is a light, never lose sight of it, for its possible, it wont be found again, and you’ll be lost in a sea of darkness and woe.

My Thoughts

How do you know what thoughts to push out and what thoughts to keep. To me they're all worth keeping but I'm always overwhelmed with them. Is there a way to actually not think about something? just forgetting it? Or is that just some fantasy that someone made up? Yet do I actually not want to think about all the mistakes I have made throughout my life? I have made many mistake throughout my 19 years of life and I know that mistakes are the way we learn but still having to relive it every 5 effing minutes? That's just bullshit! I get it. Don't do it again. So why can't it go to the back of my mind where I don't think about it but its still there? I live till I die and I don't want to relive this for the rest of my life! I want to move on learn and live not fricking learn and relive the past! Is it depression that causes this or it it my own subconscious that refuses to let go? Did I actually learn something or not? Am I supposed to do something about it? If one of my mistakes hurt someone am I a bad person? Will I make more mistakes because I try to live life to the fullest? How do I make a mistake right or am I just going to have to live with it? And how the hell am I suppose to know if it even is a mistake for could it not be a blessing in disguise?